in aout 30 minutes. really excited. i love sleeping. it's like being dead. i love being almost dead. imitatively dead. it's super good. i can't wait. every night before i go to bed i do the moves to get ready to pretend to be almost kind of dead. i palm slam my alienware laptop shut and right there i start doing the sleepwalk to the bathroom. making swishing sounds when i gargle up some Listerine or even sometimes the generic, off-brand meijer stuff. not many are interested in the kind of sleep i'm into. i am. i don't normally brag about it especially on bloard, mostly because i respect other bloarders (except derek whatshisface) because they are all respectable and totally not shit humans. i am very familiar with death and i've learned how to accept that i'm a totally lost idiot and staring at the ceiling every night in terror of growing older without an end goal or anything i'm proud of in life is the antithesis of how to solve my problems. i only sleep a few hours total a week because i wake up constantly from nightmares of being stuck in the same place for the next 60 years with nothing to leave behind. then i lift.